walk on.

3 months.

wake up. go to work.
come back. consume food.
3 dvds a day. write.
think. smoke. think again.
then write.

routine. cycles.

do some art. make some peace.
kill some cells. disrupt some brainwaves.

tie my hair. carry my bag.
roll a cigarette. ramble theories.

sunday afternoon. green grass.
shiny-white sky. breezing wind.

i've lost again.

i'm entering the hole again.

i expect and it fail.

i'm back.

a moment of silence.

a moment of pain.

happier people, brighter smile.

miss having another brain to think.

miss waking up to another soul.

breathing is hard.

really hard.

but i walk on.

-chinyew