ass-cunt producer.

came back from a fuckin boring
corporate video job. i drove atleast
300km there and back. on a fuckup
half-dead van. engine sounded like
aeroplane, except i could only go
max 60mph or black smoke comes out
of the exos and polute the fuckin air.

i used to drive and see vans like that
and think how ignorant these drivers are.
and i realized now that it wasn't the
driver's fault. it was the fuckin bosses
fault who ask the driver to drive that
particular van. ofcourse a much cheaper
van. so cheap, that the driver couldn't
stand being in it, that he has to drive
fast to get over it. thus, the black
smoke.

and that's life most of the time.

one fellow crew has recently resigned.
he worked for the company almost 5 years.
he was the multi-purpose-hands-on production
crew. he learned everything from his talented
elder brother, who also once worked for
the same company. his brother quit. same
reason he is now. underpaid.

he is 30+ years old. a wife and a kid.
he worked long hours. when something is broken,
he fixed it. long distance shoot, he'll drive.
and the company still pays him the same salary
he had 5 years ago.

he took a risk. he consulted the boss.
boss said no. and so he resigned. and
boss, say ok, no problem.

and i was the driver for the last shoot.
black smoke. aeroplane engine sound.
and my position for the shoot was,
producer. ass-cunt producer.

i see myself in him.

-chinyew