Day 06

as i was doin this piece:

my player was playin:

Halfway through
Flight there to
Where will you go?
Falling down
On the ground
Where will you go, now?
Do you remember
What made you fall?
And does it matter
To you at all?

You wanna go, you wanna see
What lies could set you free
You wanna see, right?
You'll know this night

Halfway through
Flight there to
Where will you go?
It's a nice way, I think
To wake up with you

You cannot see them
When it is light
This is the reason
We go at night

In the darkest flight of my career
I am made blue all through
On my dark descend I persevere
I am thinking of you

Halfway through
Flight there to
Where will you go?
Falling down
On the ground
Where will you go, now?

It's a nice way, I think
To wake up with you
It's a nice way
I'm separated from you

It's a nice way, I think
To wake up with you
It's a nice way
I'm separated from you

i think music shape our life too often.
i've completely stop listening to any
sappy chinese music. not even the
radio. and only when the english station
are too dull. (they're dull most of the time anyway.
and i'm too fuckin lazy to convert my cds to
tapes. can't afford a cdplayer in my car either.
besides, car player are easily stolen these days.)

i have this habit of switchin
around station till i hear something i never
heard of. if none, i rather hear the noisy streets.

malaysia's radio station sucks.
it makes us dull. we hate the songs, but
due to the frequent playback, we somehow
got brainwashed into singin them.

we are so dull people that hardly anyone
heard of Snow Patrol. or even Mew.
and we only start diggin Killers when
everyone else in the world are already
tired of it. or maybe even when OC starts
to puke on it. don't get me started on television.
can you imagine how slow malaysian taste shaped?
we are fuckin retarded.

and what the fuck is Pussy Cat Dolls?
malaysian currently are crazy over these Doll chicks.
heard of Pussy Galore? they'll rock your pussies!

anyway, all i'm sayin is,
what music you listen to, shapes you.
and the exposure of music in Malaysia is so
fuckin slow, you don't even stand a chance
of knowing whats good and whats not.
and its not even our fault.
its the radio station!
we malaysian only stand a chance when we hit it
off to countries like Australia for studies,
and then we go,
"wahh..rave music, ah? so happenin woh.
who is this dj, ah?"

GAWD, MATE, YA NEVER FUCKIN HEARDOF DJ TIESTO?

(and there is no such thing as "rave music".)

yes, malaysia has no dance radio station.
atleast Singapore has a chill-out dance station.
i was in Johor once and i even heard them playin
Aphex Twin - come to daddy.

but thank God, internet and the xxx save some
of us.

as every average Malaysian kids, i only discover
Kurt after he died for about a year or so.
from Nirvana, i discovered Sonic Youth.
and thanks to the golden-age of internet then,
(whereby other country has already reach its silver-age)
i discovered more bands under Sonic Youth's link.

thanks to xxxx, i was able to grab hold of
a vhs movie of KIDS. the background music attracted
me. and thank god they had some copies of the soundtrack
sold here. and that album was the key of me
discoverin many more. i was saved. but still i realized
it was too slow. Slint was already a legendary band
when i discovered them. they shaped Mogwai and many
other bands. and local bands back then was still playin
grunge and hardcore. only lately malaysian underground scene
has developed a little. kids here are still playin
mogwai-like-music, when the states are already
dull with it. and they never even heard of Slint.
overall, we are a rip-off-outdated international
wannabe scene. but still, that's the least we could have.
i'm contempt. but i think it'll be even more fun to go
to a gig with music styles i never heard of.

and i'm only talkin about music here.
can you imagine of books, movies, etc?
all these element shaped us. it even help
the country to develop in a more advance
futuristic way. ofcourse music fuckin rules!
and ofcourse, music, books and all these
elements are a form of art.

and maybe you like the song that i shared today.
its by Mew. the song was released 2003. and i'm ashamed
to say that i only discover them last year. i was
away from all the arty-stuff during my 2002-2004 love circa.
and even the malaysian xxxx know that Mew are
good stuff. eventhough rarely, but with luck, you
could grab hold of their 2005 album-And the Glass Handed Kites.

you probably thinkin, you're an artist,
why are you supportin xxxx?
we don't have a fuckin choice.
one import cd probably cost round RM70-RM100.
that's like one week's fuckin meal.
who made it so expensive?
can't afford? let's just stick back to our
boring o'-Hit-the-fuckin-dull-radio stations!

we are dull and bad tasted not by our choice.
'cause we don't even fuckin know at the first place.

i wonder what stuff the states people are playin now.
probably some funky-weird-electronic-abstract-rock stuff.

don't ask me.
how the hell am i suppose to know?

i'm a malaysian after all, wut.

-chinyew

note:to be saved atleast of a teeny-bit, go buy this.

p/s: can you imagine, even my style seems
to be outdated and ugly through international eyes.
but i feel its beautiful. i guess.

(god, can't look.)