and the painting for today is:
and:
finally, to my ramblings:
had a drink with 2 ex classmates last nite.
haven't kept in touch with them for years.
most of them went overseas to continue their
degree after our courses. i was one of the few
who couldn't afford to spend more money on
animation courses.
like most of us, we tried to stay in animation.
but due to how fuckup malaysia animation industry
is, our career got nowhere. either it was too low pay
or there isn't enough jobs for us.
government gives animation company crazy short-dateline
to finish seasons of animation series.
result, bad quality animation, stupid storyline,
and low pay to the animators. and the fuckin problem
here is, people don't even look highly on animation.
we don't even bother to watch our own local made animation
because its just so stupidlly bad. it makes us stupid.
its makin the local kids stupid. and nobody cares.
and nobody smart enough to even care or even know
whats goin on.
does anyone know the importance of animation?
it shaped how we adults think.
think about it!
and most of the time the gxxxent would only fund
projects that has "malaysian" element in them.
most of us turn to other stuff. fashion. motion graphics.
3d. graphic design. some i reckon not even in this
industry anymore. probably selling insurances.
we all loved 2d animation back then.
our courses cost our parents RM40K.
3 years, and we learn kiddy stuff from
books that cost less than RM100 which
our lecturer were solely basing on.
and we had to put up with it cause
we have nowhere else to go because
we have already wasted the first 2 years
on foundation. we had to finish inable
to get that pointless certificate.
come to think of it now, the paper
is fuckin useless! i only keep it
with me now to remind me of the 40k
i owed my parents.
rip-off and cruel that's what i say.
can you imagine, even our education system
here sucks. and education is one of the
keys in the development of a nation.
we stupid people trained by stupid people.
and our poor parents workin hard just
to pay these motherfuckers. and also
because of how stupid-ambitiously-childish we
were.
and most people think that i'm rich that
i could afford to do this now.
i'm not. really. my bank account has
less than RM200 now. and my fuckin ex-comxxny
account don't even bother to pay me.
i'm telling you, most companies in malaysia
are evil-asshole big bully to the poor.
and there is no market for any of i and
my ex classmates to grow.
but, we are still trying. some.
i still feel bad once inawhile thinkin
back of how much time and money i wasted
of my parents.
even now i feel what i'm doin of my life
is quite pointless. where do i get off
this dream wagon of wanting to do art?
when will i rise and wakeup from this
childish endeavors?
and i'm not even brave enough to mention
the college/company name due to some cases of the
enforcement bringin the malaysian bloggers
down who bitch too much.
sorry. please don't lockme up.
i'm just trying to sound cool.
-chinyew
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true and agreed! that "sand paper" didnt make any different in the reality. working with brainless people that dont even think before they talk or speak. just make me damm pissed off sometimes. But what to do.. we still need to survive. this is the money driven world.
Passions and dreams .. everyone has it. just the matter of dare or dare not to take the risk and gamble for it.
I almost forgotten what is my passion? what is my dream? who am i?
I just read the entire blog today .. man oh man what diffrence from last years post and this recent one.. tho it began nice and positive.. you`ve made the point on post 02 quote- "my, its only the 2nd day, and i've already started
talkin negatively. (hint of tomorrow's work)
"
Its sure is frusterating.. i wont say i know :( but ill stand and watch and give my support to you :)
/support
hey chin yew...
starting to like this song....
Halfway through
Flight there to
Where will you go?
Falling down
On the ground
Where will you go, now?
Do you remember
What made you fall?
And does it matter
To you at all?
You wanna go, you wanna see
What lies could set you free
You wanna see, right?
You'll know this night
what is the song's name?
heh, its called:
eight_flew_over_one_was_destroyed
by mew.
-chinyew
bout the whole school-money-animation thing.
do something.
or shut up.
oh yeah, you are doing something, you're making it worse, by sharing your negative meme(idea) that will spread.
you could say'i'm not blaming'
but you are blaming.
you are the 'they'
if you really care so much.
practice your drawing, do great work within the 'crazy' deadlines.
and do it for free if you have too.
if you really cared about
"the industry"
or what ever.
the honest truth.what i see is a person who feels sorry for himself,and blames the 'situation'
...
consider this, the opportunity to make something great+be heard+ be known, is probably a billion times better here than in your vision of 'america' or 'australia'
if you lived in america, and went to an american art shool, you'll complain about the goverment, racism or make some other excuse why you can't 'make it'.. before you've barely taken 2 steps.
your situation will not be improved.
if you had a girlfriend today, your situation will not be improved.
money is also a useless piece of paper until you use it.
as your diploma is.
(and i'm just getting started.)
like a personal diary gone relaly really bad
my.
all of us do have to take
a blame for that one comin.
heh.
and simply yes, i'm finding
a spot to blame.
someones has to take the
blame right?
40k man.
c'mon, you were in
that place too. 40k?
of that crap we learning
now at this pace?
c'mon!
-chinyew
(heh, how's it feel
havin the mic and rapping
anger out in a blog, eh?
heh.
i got your attention now, eh.)
p/s: and leave my girlfriend out
of this.
:)
and this ain't no diary.
this is a VOICE in my head.
:)
-chinyew
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