Day 09

was out with mom today to watch a movie.
American Haunting. its alright. not too bad.
not great. but ok. don't watch it if you don't
have the time to waste.

warning spoiler:

what i'm gonna tell you has
got to do with the painting and the movie
i just watched.

its amazing how our thoughts and feelings
can do.

i'm gonna talk about betrayal today.

how many times have you been betrayed
in yr entire life?

"betray" that's definitely gotto do
with someone who is close to you.
not just someone you know.
someone who you have such deep feelings of.
someone who you trust/love, betrays you.

you have to see the difference:
in life, someone who you are not very close
with, hurts you in a certain way,
you'll feel the pain and anger. and sometimes
you would want to have revenge on them.

but on the other hand, betrayal is such a
strong word which has gotto do with someone who
you feel dearly of, who you trust yr life with,
and who finally, hurts you
and disappoints you.

you'll feel the pain and anger.
but you cannot take revenge.
no matter how badly hurt you were,
thrown down and stepped on, you just can't.
because you still feel dearly of them.
such painful/ugly/weird agony that no
words could ever describe.
all the suppress energies.

and that could drive you mad.
and do keep note, feelins like this can never go away.
i mean, think about it. "betrayal" is a such a powerful
word compared to many other hurtful words ever in
the dictionary.

now, where all this suppress energy go?

such anger/negative energy will create
something. its proven that aura or chi exist.
and where would your angry chi/aura go?
if concentrate hard enough, it'll go somewhere.
if not, it'll stay within yr body,
and you'll rot to death. literally.

the damage is on you.

but every betrayal comes a reason/consequences.

"For every life and every act consequence of
good and evil can be shown and as in time
results of many deeds are blended so good and
evil in the end become confounded." - T. S. Eliot

"forgive" is the key word.

but how? the negative energy is so badly
contained in our body, how do we even
tell ourselves to forgive?

high technology of science has found
the cure for this suppress feelings.
an antidote-relaxant.

all sort of modern-commercial-therapies
to help you let go and forgive.

and it all leads back to the root of nature.

i present you the painting of today:

and i swear to you, i did not plan
to paint this or watch that particular
movie in any related of this post
which is within my very control.

it just came.

-chinyew