Day 6 by Brandi"I worked through the night last night,
Determined to get the images in my head,
Out onto the canvas the way
I saw them mentally."
Brandi from USA was the first artist
that took the challenge apart from i
and i-ming.
we had a very exciting month that year.
it was our first test of whether an outsider,
especially from such a distanced country from ours,
could withstand the 30dayartist marathon.
i still remember how i and I-ming with his laptop,
like kids all hyped-up with their new toy,
checking for Brandi's posts and the audiences' comments.
and we'll go "yay!"
we witnessed how Brandi overcomes her
negative demons, fears and sorrows.
there were moments we thought that she
wasn't gonna make it,
but in the end, she shines.
she made it all the way to day-30
with 40 retro-pop-abstract works.
(i'm bad at categorizing style.
but she did mention that she had discovered
a new style during her run.)
i remember imagining a girl running pass
that finishing line in slow-mo.
orchestrated olympic music.
small pieces of colourful paper flying everywhere.
audiences cheering.
and she crying in gladness and happiness
of her survival and reborn.
simply amazing. definitely deserve
a reread of the entire run.
on her last day-30, she posted a very well
summarized conclusion of her entire experience.
she spoke of how the comments had influenced/shaped her;
good and bad.
i agree.
comments are the moral support/fuel for any
artist of continuing this journey,
all the way towards the finishing line.
i mean, if you could just look at it this way,
from the perspective of an artist;
what's the point of doing a show/art,
of all the long-hard nights,
struggling to get the images out from your head,
hoping that it will inspire-move people,
when there's no audiences?
it'll merely be just like jerking off.
we need to know from you
that we're not just that;
simply jerking off.
the number of comment determines
the number of audiences who are
REALLY watching.
it determines the level of impressiveness
of the artist's work/post is,
the level of extreme whether is it worth
the trouble of audiences commenting,
"your work rocks!"
or rather
"your work sucks!"
the least, it made an impact/impression.
despise of it being good or bad.
if the artists had not gotten any comments for their work,
they just have to bitterly swallows the sad-truth that
they are just simply not good/moving enough,
of convincing people to give a fuck/care ratass about.
;from the artist's perspective that is.
we had advised 30dayartists to fight, struggle,
beg, force, and overcome this attention factor.
of not having it and of not being too obsessively
in the mist of gaining it.
we advised; balance.
they just have to bitterly swallows the sad-truth that
they are just simply not good/moving enough,
of convincing people to give a fuck/care ratass about.
;from the artist's perspective that is.
we had advised 30dayartists to fight, struggle,
beg, force, and overcome this attention factor.
of not having it and of not being too obsessively
in the mist of gaining it.
we advised; balance.
but before the balance, one has to know that
we're all little children; the self.
like a 6-year old kid dealing with the ignorance of
her/his busy mom.
"mommy is busy right now.
mommy will look at your drawings later, okay? "
*muaks*
try harder.
with that small brink of hope of you carrying on;
knowing that your art is worth every stress, blood and sweat.
the determination.
the confidence.
the core.
internal-recognition, rather than external.
to know that you are worth every ounce of it.
despise all the cold and silent shoulders you get,
'recognize' yourself first before wanting people to 'recognize' you.
know yourself.
that you are worth it.
i know i am.
therefore, i don't care.
(just alittle tired that's all... *hint*hint*)
but grateful enough to know that you've at least
read it this far.
now, onto today's hard work ;)
pls help to decide:
or without frames?
-chinyew
like a 6-year old kid dealing with the ignorance of
her/his busy mom.
"mommy is busy right now.
mommy will look at your drawings later, okay? "
*muaks*
try harder.
with that small brink of hope of you carrying on;
knowing that your art is worth every stress, blood and sweat.
the determination.
the confidence.
the core.
internal-recognition, rather than external.
to know that you are worth every ounce of it.
despise all the cold and silent shoulders you get,
'recognize' yourself first before wanting people to 'recognize' you.
know yourself.
that you are worth it.
i know i am.
therefore, i don't care.
(just alittle tired that's all... *hint*hint*)
but grateful enough to know that you've at least
read it this far.
now, onto today's hard work ;)
pls help to decide:
with frames
or without frames?
-chinyew
p/s: since-after Brandi's run, we have trouble contacting her.
her email account doesn't seem to work and her blog emptied.
i'm always curious of her latest progress and state.
i would like to take the opportunity here, if she is reading this,
(contact us!)
to thank her again for having the faith and of being the first to take
the 30dayartist challenge at the early stage,
when we ourselves wasn't sure of whether 30dayartist would work.
we salute you.
and on the thanking state, i thank all the ones
who had commented on this blog.
who had commented on this blog.
many artist couldn't have survived without you guys!
lovexxxxx
lovexxxxx
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